My head has been so everywhere lately. I’ve been getting so irritated. I’m looking for something real, and it seems impossible. i think i found something, i just really don’t know how to go about it. hahaa nelson was right. it would be hella dope if you could just be like im done with this life right now, and hella just start over with a new one. & VALENTINES DAY is coming. blaah, FUCK it. this time last year i was in a  relationship that i thought was gonna last forever, and now look where it is. I’ve really got my eye on something but im so scared of being hurt again. it really is the worst feeling in the world, and i know i dont deserve it to come around twice. BTW, i had a really good weekend last week. i really do hope there’s more to come. I’m so into etta james, otis redding, and beyonce right now everything they sing is sounding right about now. WTF ! haha. i miss my best friend sonny, cause in situations like these, he was there. hes been there for 9 years now. that’s my brother. if i took anyone’s words and really stuck with them, they’d be mimi baybayy’s. she said “expect the worse, ad wish for the best” that’s exactly how I’m gonna go at this situation. it is what it is :] but id be lying if i said i don’t like you. I could honestly say, i want this to work out.